Monday, May 3, 2010

Self Acceptance is the key

Yesterday we had our performance appraisal... like a school going kid i was nervous about the results of the performance review. The HR and the bosses tried are patience till the end of the day... finally at 8pm they declared results...the people who promoted were celebrating with joy, and many others who were not were having mixed feelings of hurt depression anger jealousy sadness... the otherwise en lighted atmosphere in the dealing room was suddenly dull and shady... there were only a few hand shakes and that too which didn't come with joy... everyone was cribbing about the HR and the bosses..how they didn't care about the employees progress success and benefits... and it went on and on....

Then i realized one thing.... are these having problem accepting what the management has offered them or is it that they have problem in accepting themselves with what they have achieved...

i do agree that injustice is done on the deserving people who have worked hard all year round... but then if you are getting what you want in life you have to accept it then move on.
I know had i been in place of Natasha or Prakhar who have not got promoted in spite of 3 yrs of excellent work, even i would be upset... but not to the limits of just going into a depression and feeling sorry about myself... i would never do that... no one else but me myself have the right to judge my potential...

i have set my own refernece points in life and i would like to judge myself with those.. what people feel and what my boss evaluates me is very much important for my professional career..

On a personal front it is me who decides what i had set as target and what i have achieved...

Last financial year was good for me... i moved in to a new profile .. new learning..new team.. new experiences and newer responsibilities... I had decided to give my best shot in the work life and i can say...ya i tried hard to make it good... obviously the best is yet to some....

I have learn t the way the business works... the way counter parties handle it..actually handling the counter parties themselves is a big job :) then taking decisions..handling queries...client call...discussions with sales teams... well the year was happening and i thoroughly enjoyed it... with a rating 2 at the end of the year..and appreciation from the boss as well...

I think my other colleges getting promotion and better rating didn't affect me as bad as it affected others is because... i have accepted myself and my achievements...
saying this i am not being complacent and not giving up on not trying harder... and neither i am under estimating my performance... its just that i know what i did and i am happy to get what i deserved...

I just hope everyone in the team just gets over the whole rating and performance review and just kick start the new year with a high spirit and enthusiasm... there is a long way to go ahead guys... cheer up... Picture abhi Baki hai mere dost !!! :)

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